The journey of ascension is a sacred crucible, often demanding a profound confrontation with our deepest emotional wounds. This past week, a group channeling session illuminated a particularly poignant aspect of this process for me. Engaging with a benevolent being named Ol Ya Ma, I sought clarity on a specific silence I’d observed in my client work. While I understood it intellectually through my Spirit Guide Amy, Ol Ya Ma’s response was revelatory, touching the very core of my being.
Ol Ya Ma spoke directly of the tough times I’ve navigated throughout my life, detailing how my heart had been broken repeatedly. To hear the explicit mention of moments where I had contemplated not wanting to be here, followed by a reference to someone called “the other one,” triggered a powerful, undeniable eruption within me. An avalanche of emotions, deep and multi-layered, has since surged to the surface, demanding profound exploration.
The Echoes of Abandonment: A Multidimensional Wound
Since that extraordinary Wednesday, I’ve been diligently exploring these surfacing emotions. What has perplexed me most is the pervasive feeling of abandonment. It’s a sensation that echoes through lifetime after lifetime, where the happiness of feeling love was consistently followed by death or a profound loss, the love invariably being “taken away.” I am currently immersed in the challenging process of exploring and identifying these emotions in greater depth, seeking their complete release. This experience is remarkably profound: typically, I work through one past-life issue at a time, but for the first time, this is a simultaneous clearing of multiple past lives, each distinct emotion resonating with a different Akashic record.
This journey is the heart of soul purification, an essential component of ascension. Its ultimate purpose is to reunite us with the divine love that is our inherent essence. Perhaps Earth, in this moment, represents the final frontier for this particular evolutionary phase, or perhaps, as souls, we will continue to expand, traversing the Omniverse as new races and planets are continuously birthed. The mind, as one can see, endlessly ponders these cosmic questions.
Beyond Chaos: The Master's View on Emotional Fire
My previous discussions with Master Serapis Bey concerning the nature of anger now resonate with newfound clarity. I had described anger as existing in “two realms simultaneously”: one chaotic, filled with fury and frustration; the other, a sanctuary brimming with love and happiness. It felt as if every single lifetime was converging upon me, each individual emotion linked to a distinct ‘case file’ of unresolved experience. My endeavour became to clear many of these emotional ‘files’ at once, rather than through an exhaustive, singular process. While the precise meaning of observing these emotions linked to a specific person remains speculative, the work to address it was undeniable, focusing on purification imbued with unconditional love.
The Masters have given profound permission for this deep work: “There is nothing that prevents you from asking the Father Creator/Prime Source to assist you in unravelling these emotional karmic vectors.” This is a divine green light, empowering us to engage in profound emotional alchemy. The path of purification, they advise, involves six distinct, interconnected steps: 1. cleansing & clearing, 2. release & renunciation, 3. balance & equanimity, 4. love, 5. service, and 6. one unity consciousness. Armed with this framework, the journey of exploration and experimentation truly began.
The Alchemist's Process: Neutralising Pain for Inner Peace
The Masters’ advice provided a powerful framework, compelling me to rely on my own intuitive understanding and soul memory. The first practical step involved staring directly at the anger, learning to comprehend its vibrational signature in order to neutralise its potency. Anger, uniquely, possesses an energetic quality akin to a “saw shape”—a jagged, irritating frequency. To counteract this dense energy and soothe its discomfort, one must meet it with gentle, almost water-like energy, applied softly to the ‘tips of the saw,’ much like how stones in a riverbed are smoothly worn down by the constant flow of water. This technique proves invaluable when experiencing personal anger, enabling one to neutralise its destructive power. It’s also crucial to remember the role of the external environment; anger isn’t only internal, as rooms themselves can sometimes retain an angry energetic residue.
Once I grasped the anger’s true nature, it was time to heal it. This involved consciously sending it love, nurturing it, and forgiving it—forgiving both myself for experiencing the emotion and the emotion itself. Anger, at its core, is a reaction to something that causes hurt, a response to situations we feel unable to control, or perhaps even a construct of the ego mind. Yet, anger, in some form, is present in all our lives, offering a vital signal.
The Divine Circle of Support and Continuous Ascension
With purification and love as my guiding principles, I called forth a powerful team of Archangels and Masters. Archangel Uriel, the Angel of purification, with his cleansing sword, was invoked. I also sought the masculine support of Archangel Michael, known for his humour and unwavering unconditional love. Archangel Chamuel, radiating pink and golden energy of unconditional love, was called forth to imbue the frequencies with pure love. Finally, Mother Mary (as an Ascended Master), Amy, and Archangel Ariel completed the circle, forming a powerful collective of six beings dedicated to working through the complex emotional issues that had surfaced.
It is crucial to remember that this ascension work is not completed overnight; each day marks a step in progress. Anger will resurface, feelings of grief will emerge, and many other emotions will undoubtedly rise to the surface. This is simply the purification stage of the soul. Knowing that I have traversed many lifetimes devoid of joy or happiness, it does not surprise me that this purification process is proving to be a ‘rough ride.’ This challenging journey is essential for soul growth. For teacher souls like myself (as Amy advised), embracing greater challenges is a necessary part of our curriculum. How else are we to authentically guide others through adversity, to teach them how to navigate challenging times, and to illuminate pathways to peace when walking through what appears to be chaos? These are, ultimately, the greatest opportunities to observe, learn, and embody truth.
I have begun meticulously documenting the progress of how things unfold during this intricate sequence of transformation—the ‘death of the old’ within my being. This detailed record will serve as a guide for others embarking on similar journeys of emotional alchemy and soul purification.
